Maddie's gone.
...
Okay, that sounded really bad. Actually, she's gone to her grandparents for a week, and I'm without any way of communicating with her. And for the first time in almost a year, I am once again... totally alone. I know. I'm an emo bitch.
But let's get one thing straight. I can't concentrate without her. I won't concentrate without her. I'm reliant on videogames to get through the day. I mean, what the fuck? How does something like that-
I just got a text from her. One second. (This is some real-time shit.)
"Love you, babe."
Now, may I just say...
AAAAAWWW-Yeah, I'm totally fucked.
Okay, so this is supposed to be about me, not her.
See, I'm about to find out what kind of person I am. An ex maybe-or-may-not be in some emotional turmoil, and now I'm having to question my own relationship with her (not a good one) and wondering whether, now she may (MAY) be experiencing some pains I'd find strangely familiar, is it time to forgive and forget? Or just an opportunity for an "I told you so" and another twist of the knife (which, by the way, is something I have yet to try my hand at, despite my feelings towards her.)
So, where do I go from here? Well, no doubt circumstances will push us together (geographically) sooner or later, and when the time comes, I'm going to have to make a decision I can be proud of. Because she's too close to this and, frankly, so is Maddie. I am the only person who can make this desicion.
(HELP!)
Remember when I said this would be about me? Yeah?
Fuck you, internet. (Have a nice day.)
